I dont no wats worth fightin for or y I have to scream
I dont no y I instigate n say wat I dont mean
I dont no how I got this way I no its not alright
So Im breakin the habit... tonight
Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more than anytime before I had no options left again
i dont no wats worth fightin for or y i have to scream
I dont no y I instigate n say wat I dont mean
I dont no how I got this way Ill never b alright
So I'm breaking the habit tonight
ill paint it on the walls cus Im the1 at fault Ill never fight again n this is how it ends
i dont no wats worth fightin for or y i have to scream
but now i have sum clarity to show u wat i mean
i dont know how i got this way ill never be alright
so im breakin the habbit...TONIGHT
hey people.. so wow i havent written in forever.. u guys missed a lot.. lol workin on man number like 6 for the summer haha.. his name was ryan.. he brought me roses and perfume.. very nice..scored big time for those..wont get into that..i got in my first car accident .. wasnt my fault at least.. but it was w/a black man named curtis.. taht was really the one.. i had no time for that at all lol so hes guna pay for it.. but cliff at work is supposed to get it fixed w/me tomorrow. (friday) we'll see... i work in sportswear now.. no more receiving...yay .. haha.. woo.. chris (boat man) told me i was "very attractive" today.. hmmm lol odd guys i swear.. all of em are coming back.. lets see this summer theres been nick, Chris, Ryan , Nick, EDDIE! (LOL) crazy i swear.. me and mel go on the craziest adventures too.. i hope daniels next..and last.. today i went up to clinton crossing w/my man number 7 haha jk .. nick.. it was an adventure and a half.. he came over at like 63o.. i drove.. my wiper is broken.. my cars a POS and he laughed at it ..lol =( so then he helped me buy sandals!!!! i was mucho excited.. it only took like 10 stores.. haha.. oh well .. it was fun.. he was deffinately different and not my type but we had fun.. he talked a lot and i liked that =) he also is my new personal shopper and found me sandals today in nike lol mucho excited about that ( i have to tell u multiple times bc it was exciting) so then we got some food..well he bought a pretzel and i got a snapple and we sat and talked for a bit.. fun times.. then we left around 8 or so.. i got on the wrong highwawy or something.. got lost in downtown new haven.. lol but we found our way out.. haah then i almost died on the way home in all the rain... baaaad time lol.. then we came back home and we sat in my car for a while.. talking.. he looked at my damages.. he showed me his truck a bit.. i danced in the street haha.. fun times.. i had a good tiem w/him.. its guna be good to have a new friend... for once heh.. oh well.. vacations coming up.. im excited.. oh well time for sleep.. oh and i love marcus...lmao
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