Screaming Out Loud

Thursday, June 17, 2004

We should be lovers..And thats a fact

Ewan:
Love is a many splendored thing
Love lifts us up where we belong
All you need is love

Nicole:
Please don't start that again

Ewan:
All you need is love

Nicole:
A girl has got to eat

Ewan:
All you need is love

Nicole:
She'll end up on the street

Ewan:
All you need is love

Nicole:
Love is just a game

Ewan:
I was made for loving you baby
You were made for loving me

Nicole:
The only way you were loving me baby
Is to pay a lovely fee

Ewan:
Just one night
Just one night

Nicole:
There's no way
Cause you can't pay

Ewan:
In the name of love
One night in the name of love

Nicole:
You crazy fool
I won't give in to you

Ewan:
Don't leave me this way
I can't survive without your sweet love
Oh baby don't leave me this way

Nicole:
You think that people would have enough of silly love songs

Ewan:
I look around me and I see it isn't so, oh no

Nicole:
Some people wanna fill the world with silly love songs

Ewan:
Well what's wrong with that
I like to know
Cause here I go again

Yeah love lifts us up where we belong
Where the eagles fly
On a mountain high

Nicole:
Love makes us sad like we are fools
Throw our lives away
For one happy day

Ewan:
We can be heroes
Just for one day

Nicole:
You, you will be mean

Ewan:
No I won't

Nicole:
And I, I'll drink all the time

Ewan:
We should be lovers

Nicole:
We can't do that

Ewan:
We should be lovers
And that's a fact

Nicole:
No nothing would keep us together

Ewan:
We could steal time

Ewan & Nicole:
Just for one day
We can be heroes
Forever and ever
We can be heroes
Forever and ever
We can be heroes

Ewan:
Just because I, and I will always love you

Nicole:
I only can't help it
How wonderful life is now

Ewan and Nicole:
You're in the world

hey guys...sorry for the delay.. well today was officially the "last day of school" now all i have left are my finals..which is chem english photo & math.. easy ! woohoo!! im excited..so now that means i am a SENIOR baby! woohoo! maybe now i can friggen understand lmao...but does that mean i have to get drunk! just keedeng..so.. some things have been goin down... mel got some kid andres diggits from the shoe dept. in burlington ..which is awesome bc it gave me an excuse to talk to AMA lmao actually i dont know his name i think its emanuel but i call him ama ...lmao ...so now he talks to me all the time.. hes so hott..yummy! im also excited bc im goin to kelseys, marcies and bocs grad parties.. yay!! i kant beleve how bad next year is guna suck..this year went by faster than docco to a church! i kant wait to see how fast next year goes w//mud volleyball , powder puff, senior softball game, prom, picnic, omg!! hahaha its really finally exciting to go back to school... ahh! haha i cant wait now lol.. ok im done being a dork.. so joel talked to me a lot more today.. ehhhh.. its crazy.. i liked him a lot.. idont really like him nemore.. i think i just really miss the attention.. it was funny today tho in baby depot cus i worked down there today and there was this couple who didnt even know theyre own name and Gina stalked them thru the shoe depo.. haha crazy... this summers guna be fun @ work.. yay! lol... so0 theres really nothin else goin on.. but ill keep u updated!! later dude

<3Manda

"If you always put limit on everything you do, physical or
anything else. It will spread into your work and into your
life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you
must not stay there, you must go beyond them."

-- Bruce Lee

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Wednesday, June 09, 2004

a one way ticket out of my life

i know a girl whos obsessed with a guy
she talks for hours and still tomorrow
she'll call again and when he thinks that this could be the end,
she calls again
at six in the morning she waits at the door
he tells her to leave but still tomorrow shell be there again
she wont let go

cant you just go somewhere on vacation?
i could book your flight
and pack your bags
if you want
a one way ticket out of my life
watching you fly away
i never liked you

she dosent care if he trys to ignore
he runs away but still she follows
shell try again
she likes to think shell get him in the end
yeah

cant you just go somewhere on vacation?
i could book your flight
and pack your bags
if you want
a one way ticket out of my life
watching you fly away
i never liked you
i never wanted you
i never liked you
i never wanted you, whoa

cant you just go somewhere on vacation?
i could book your flight
and pack your bags
if you want
a one way ticket out of my life
watching you fly away
i never liked you
i never wanted you
i never liked you
im not in love with you

hey guys.. its wednesday...today was once again super boring.. and horrible.. grr.. woke up grabbed a shower left the house got to skewl (HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX)hung around..went to chem.. it was boring.. gym i played football..study hall i did nothin.. english i did a worksheet.. band we played.. i have nothing to say about some of that shit.. grr.. photography wasnt bad @ all.. for once..and neither was math.. backwards day haha..so then um me and dan got into a "fight" sorta i dono.. grr.. watever dude.. im over it.. i hope he is too :-/ oh well so um i went to work.. hung around w/melissa, Ilir & cliff haha those kids are awesome..lol so that was it .. i went and got dinner at mcdonalds for me karen melissa and mom.. and then i came back... worked some more.. left @ 7:30.. came home threw on an outfit and went bak to burlington to see melissa.. stayed for about 15 min then came home and here i am.. just been shit all over and i kant WAIT to get this school year over.. tomorrows the music picnic @ short beach..im excited..lol.. well ttyl

Manda

"Nothing will ever be attempted if all possible objections
must first be overcome."

-- Samuel Johnson, Author

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Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Ill just watch you crash & burn

One more thing before you go
We�ll stay up late for one more show
Grab the keys we�re going out
We�re leaving home and we won�t come back again
We�re friends till the end
We�ll take on the world
We just don�t care at all

I never wanted to believe that you could lie
That friends deceive
And here I stand I�m still the same
I watched you change
You wont come back

I wonder what it�s like to be like you
To never really care how bad it hurts
So go ahead and lie and keep moving on
It�s all about yourself you�re never wrong
I�ll watch you crash and burn

The day is gone
It�s cold out
I walk alone as you fade out
I don�t know why I�m reaching out
And now I know you wont come back

Do you remember the days?
Way back when we used to say
Nothing can change us
No one will stop us
I�ll never be like you

I�ll watch you crash and burn
You�re never wrong and you keep moving on

hey homies.. so today was boring and uneventful lol.. i woke up drove to school hung around in the band room.. went to chem class...per 1&2.. then went to study hall and then went to english then band than photo then math.. nothin fun.. after that i went over to work w/amanda.. hung out w/my mom ish and ilir.. looked @ sum pics and then that was it.. i brought amanda home and then stopped home to change..after that i went to mcdonalds and bought me mom and ish some dinner.. then skuttled off to work.. i worked for a wile.. hung out w/ilir gazzy and cliff for a bit.. waited for melissa..she came @ like 7.. talked to her boss eric.. and then jeff...then i talked to her mom in the parking lot for a bit..then me and ish left and i brought him to his house.. then i came home and now here i am..quite bored..lol i know this probably was the most uneventful and boring thing u ever had to have read but it was a boring day.. i apologize.. lol.. take care homies

<3
Manda

"All things are possible until they are proved impossible -
and even the impossible may only be so as of now."

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Monday, June 07, 2004

And you're the only one who Knows exactly what I need

Well I saw you with your hands above your head,
Spinning around, trying not to look down,
But you did, and you fell,
Hard
On the ground

Then you stumbled around for a good ten minutes,
And I said I've never seen anyone look so dumb before
And you laughed and said
�I still know how to turn you on though�

And you're the only one who
Drags me kickin and screamin through fast dreams
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I need

And I probably forgot to tell you this
Like the time when I forgot to tell you about the scar,
Remember how uncomfortable that made you feel?
See you're not what I expected,
But you're the only one who knows how to handle me,
And you're such a great kisser,
And I know that you agree

And you're the only one who
Drags me kickin and screamin through fast dreams
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I need

I hope you can forgive me for that time
When I put my hand between your legs and said it was small,
Cause it's really not at all
I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down
Just to keep you around,
Cause the day that you realize how amazing you are
You're gonna leave me!

And you're the only one who
Holds my hair back when I'm drunk and get sick
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean

And you're the only one who
Drags me kickin and screamin through fast dreams
And you're the only one who
Knows exactly what I need

Exactly what I need

Well I saw you with you hands above your head,
Spinning around, trying not to look down,
But you did, and you fell,
Hard
On the ground

happy june 7th lol.. its been a long time and nothing really big has happened since the last time i wrote you..which was may 13th lol wat can i say i have better things to do then write in an online journal lol i guess u missed out on some importnt stuff but its no biggie.. this fridya im goin to NYC w/boc and homies.. it should be fun ! loll.. i got melissa a job at burlington.. YAY! lol gangstar shit.. umm OH YA! u missed my birfday..that was may 16th that was exciting.. i got a car for my bday.. its a white taurus.. its gangstar and shit.. i also got tons of strawberry shortcake stuff from my sis.. thats super gangstar.. and i got ROAD FLARES! lol and a greencard birfday card lol or some ish like that.. but me and mi familia including my extended family kelsey and melissa.. went to the mexis and i wore the sombrero and they sang happy mexi birfday and the white mexi is back and i took a pic w/him lol ..cool stuff.. so anyways thats about it.. i guess..lol everyones yellin at me to update but like they act like they dont see me everyday!! haha morons they just like being nosey and reading my shit!!!!!! ahhahaha nosy suns of bitches named ... oh wait... i forgot i cant say anyones name bc i might get arrested or fined so i guess ill refrain from saying anyones real names.. so i guess my friends MELISSA will be mellow and kel will be kellow and that way i wont get sued or break any laws or something..lol ppl r dum.. oh well... so anyways kels had fun @ prom..thats xciting for her... i kant beleve theres like 2 weeks left .. i kant wait fo' summer.. i got my own ride .. money.. and friends! i think im guna go to VA beach and meet up w/some other "friend" lol.. o0o0oo0w!! soo0o theres no drama bc im keepin drama out of my life.. thats how its guna be next year.. drama free! i promise lol.. o0o well anyways...thats all thats been happenin so i guess ill be outtie.. ill try and write more often.. i guess ppl really DO care lmao.. sorry kel..hahah

peace love & curtis!

<3
Manda

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Thursday, May 13, 2004

California here we come..right back where we started from.

we've been on the run..driving in the sun, looking out for Number 1..
California here we come..right back where we started from.
hustlers grab your guns, your shadow weighs a ton, driving down the 101..
California here we come,right back where we started from..
Californiaaaaaaaa! Here we cooooommmme!

On the stereo, listen as we go..nothing's gonna stop me now,
California here we come, right back where we started from..
pedal to the floor, thinkin' of the roar, gotta get us to the show,
California here we come, right back where we started from..
Californiaaaaaaaa! Here we cooooommmmme!

hey homies..so its thursdayyyyy that means tomorrows friday woop holler.. and tomoro night is relay fo lyf..thats exciting like wo lol.. so im really tired and dont feel like typing butttt lets see.. ashleys back and i love her and i missed her ! hahah.. so anyways.. i went back to work today.. for like 3 hours lol.. i so dont feel good..these pills are really killing me lol.. oh well... theressss 3 days til my birthday or something like that lol.. so wutevaa haha im guna be a dancing queen!!!!!! LoL.. just keedeeng... soooo umm anyways blake came over tonight.. he wouldnt watch my most favorite movie how to lose a guy in 10 days so he made me watch stupid cartoons..lol.. it was fun though.. yah.. haha well thats about it.... later homies!!

<3
Manda
~~Let it burn~~

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Wednesday, May 12, 2004

You are my only, my only one

Here I go, scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one like you
You are my only, my only one

hey homies..so today is wednesday and i still feel sick w/these damn pills lol.. ummm my birthday is in like 4 days holler! haha mucho exciting i know lol.. so anyways skewl was okkk i guess.. nothing special.. chris asked me to go to the game tonight ..which i WAS planning on doing buttttt blake and i hung out instead... lol for the first time ever i actually had a GOOD time lol.. he came and picked me up and we went down to the beach and walked around in the ICKY mud which WASNT fun lol.. but it was really hot out.. damn lol.. that was my first beach outing! i was excited ..sorta..lol.. so then after that blake wanted fries but the place was closed so he went to bo's and had sum pizza.. we talked about random stuff and things that i DIDNT wanna hear about lol but then i came home ... and now its raining..but overall i had a really good time.. see u CAN have a good time w/out having SEX lol.. well maybe..haha.. we'll see how next time goes... since i shouted something as i got out of the car lol.. oops...!! JUST KEEDENG! hahaha... oh well...

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Tuesday, May 11, 2004

I'm bouncing off the walls again

I'm bouncing off the walls again
I'm looking like a fool again
I threw away my reputation
One more song for the radio station

so todays tuesday.. last night i went to the shs softball game..we lost again.. damn.. we were 12-0..now were 12-2.. blah.. o0 well..so anyways..it was funny bc this kid colin was saying just keedeing and doing papi chulo lips.. lol i was shitting my pants hahah it was mucho funny .. so anyways on the way home i saw my homie cait lol actually my cousin..and she was tellin me abt her blond moment @ the car wash..moron hahah but i still love her hahaa.. so anyways.. today was grand.. i was sick to my stomach so i left during third period and slept fo like 10 hours lol. i woke up at like 4 and got ready for the my spring concert.. so anyways i got there around 6 and rodneys running around crying saying he doesnt have his uniform.. so i told him id drive him home quick so of course chris has to come too so we got in my car and rodney lives in gangsta town, stfd and chris thinks its funny to yell obscenities out the window @ the black ppl lol i really almost got shot 249973458 times hahaa but i had fun w/them..so the concert was good.. . i saw an "old friend"sorta.. bahh i dont want nething to do w/taht nemore..lol i saw sebastion tho and he wished me a happy birthday! that kid is so gangstar i love him hahaha.. so thats about it.. now im just sitting here..dan called me to say goodnight cus hes studying or some shit tonight... i dono.. grr.. lol i guess ill go get some sleep since i got no one else to talk to .. or anything else to do... lol..nighty night

<3
Manda

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Saturday, May 08, 2004

CLEVELAND, OHIO

Still is the life
Of your room when you're not inside
And all of your things
Tell the sweetest storyline
Your tears on these sheets
And your footsteps are down the hall
Tell me what I did
I can't find where the moment
went wrong at all..
come back to bed

CLEVELAND, OHIO
APRIL 30 - MAY 3, 2004
LAKE ERIE CLASSIC MUSIC FEST

i really have nothing exciting to say except some key highlights ( for more 411 read .. KELS JOURNAL or MARCUS' JOURNAL OR MARCIES' JOURNAL lol and ull find out the more informative details ..

me and kelsey didnt fight
i enjoyed pirates better the second time around
rodney smells
chris smells
tony is in the KKK
molly sabas is hott
alex loves kelsey
kelsey loves alex
***** is psycho
marcie knows how to shop
i made a new friend and hes gangstar! hahah
i learned a new handshake
me and rodney became closer lol
boys suck
boys lie
security guards w/tung rings are hott
girls wear some nasty ass clothes to bed
scotts a good listener
boc really CAN dance
ashleys good in bed
leos hometown buffet is gross
rock & roll hall of fame rox but their food sucks
peter pan buses SUCK!!!!!
so do i lol
i know all about rodneys sex life
pizza hut delivers until 4am
docco is gangstar
mike lee got kicked outta jazz band
ppl are nasty wen asleep
racism debates lead to arguments
dont go to the cracker barrel
rod & leo are in OHIO! (& fuddruckers)
i love marcie Kelsey and ashley<3

hahah peace out homies!

<3manda

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Thursday, April 15, 2004

its easy to love me now ;-)

It's easy to love me now
Would you love me if I was down and out?
Would you still have love for me?
It's easy to love me now
Would you love me if I was down and out?
Would you still have love for me?

Are you mad 'cause I'm asking you 21 questions?
Are you my soulmate? 'Cause if so, boy you a blessing
Do you trust me enough, to tell me your dreams?
I'm staring at ya' trying to figure how you got in them "boxers"(lmao)
If I was down would you say things to make me smile?
I treat you how you want to be treated just teach me how
If I was with some other "homie" and someone happened to see?
And when you asked me about it I said it wasn't me
Would you believe me? Or up and leave me?
How deep is our bond if that's all it takes for you to be gone?
And always remember boo we make mistakes, to make it up I do whatever it take
~~I love you like a fat kid love cake~~
You know my style I say anything to make you smile

~~holler~~ haha i thought id keep it gangsta considerin i wore my gangstar shirt hahah so today was strizzle lol im a losa! wat kan i say.. so anyways we had a community fair for juniors today.. it was ok i suppose lol i chazzilled w/christina & erika.. brings me bak to the good ole days.. hahah i love then lyk docco loves church! so i watced erika ride the ride and i got a marine dvd lmao wow funny.. so anyways we watched more of moby dick and once again i fell asleep ..somethings wrong w/me i swear.. so i dono if its bad news or not but ~~Eddie~~ called me last night :-| lol it started off really weird lol but then things got better ;-) haha i dono i confuse myself sometime.. my special friend came home today !! wat a surprise haha.. so classes werent anything special.. just boring.. lol .. after skewl
erix brought me home and i did my quick DUI project for DE.. im freakin scared im guna fail.. bc so many ppl do @ the DMV.. i dono.. bahh oh well.. so anyways then i went to drivers ed from 4-8 and im so pissed that JON PETER LEWIS got kicked off american idol.. yo who does that! wateva yo! this season sucked so much its not even funny oh well...mucho excited for tomororw night .. quality ghost hunting w/cait mucho sexiness...lol oh well im out like a straight man in my life!!!

<3Manda

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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Die young and save yourself.

Keep the noise low, she doesn't wanna blow it.
She stripped from head to toe and then left him with his shoulder out.
Go get your heartbeat.
It beats me straight into the ground.
You don't recover from a night like this.

Our victim, still lying in bed, completely motionless.
A hand moves in the dark to her zipper.
And a boy best in tourniquet sheets barely whispers,
"This is so messed up."
Upon arrival the guests had all stared.
Dripping wet and clearly depressed, he'd headed straight for the stairs.
No longer cool, but a boy in a stitch,
unprepared for a life filled with lies and failing relationships.
(Up the stairs, the station where the act becomes the art of growing up.)
He keeps his hands low, he doesn't wanna blow it.
He's wet from head to toe and his eyes give her the up and the down.
His stomach turns and he thinks of throwing up.
Get the body on the bed like it's flowered and he starts going down.

The people, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to settle.
Die young and save yourself.

They take all the taste out.
It used to be the reason that we're even, now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth, he's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time", he said.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her exactly what it really feels like.
He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast
and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he touches is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her, but she's probably only looking for...
(Up the stairs, the station where the act becomes the art of growing old.)
So much more than he could ever give.
A life full of lies and failing relationships.

He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He waits for it to end and for the aching in his guts to subside.
The people, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to settle.

Die young and save yourself.
They take all the taste out.
It used to be the reason that we're even,
now it's choking me up.

Die young and save yourself.
Up the stairs, the station where the act becomes the art of growing old.
The people, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to settle.
Die young and save yourself.
They take all the taste out.
It used to be the reason that we're even,
now it's choking me up.

Die young and save yourself.

hey gangstars.. today was just a regular ole wednesday.. lol boring like usual.. umm here ill give u the low-down
Chem nothing really.. i almost fell asleep 10 times..poor adrienne..lol i really do feel so bad haha
Gym hahaha i had stomach cancer and wanted to sleepies but i ended up playin against Nick in ping pong and he sucked ass then me ash dan and nick played and dan sucked even more lol.
Study hall all i have to say is molly is so hot lmao jk!!!
English yo that shits busted man haha were watchin moby dick and my ass fell asleep!! lol i need more sleep@night
Band sucks..except michelle and ashely kill me wen they talk abt girls in our class hahaha
LUNCH! oh yah mutha fucka! hahah yo our table is mexi packed now lol.. but rodneys a killer fo sho..and no i dont wanna hear abt his sexual nights!! lol eh oh well.. funny as hell tho..
photo nothn really i hate that class
math haha we went on strike and leyton brought us down to the senior fashion show it was really good lol yay fo the class of oh fo'!!! lol

so then i had work.. me and Ilir had a nice chat ;-) haha mucho fun.. i bought a gangstar shirt...and wen i say gangstar i mean super duper curtis gangstar haha im scurred.. i cant wear it in front of marcus' homies lmao just keeding!! JPL rocked american idol tonight woop!! haha well thats abt it fo today!! peace out kiddies!

<3 Manda

** feel better cait!! we'z got friday comin!! **

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